I'm getting used to not sleeping. So much I can't count the days. Sometimes I slip into dreaming- into the background I fade. I think too much of the meanings and not enough hit the page. I get caught up in the feelings and lost inside of the greys. I guess I'm one for believing if you stay strong then it pays, but everything that I'm seeing shows not a thing stays the same.
Something's been eating me away. I can feel it in my veins. My heart and my mind become a victim to my rage. Channelling the pain into something I can gain. Strip away the spirits from the demons I contain. There is no light without the dark. We have to fight to make a mark.
We may slip and fall apart, but we won't let down our hearts. Even after I depart there will always live a part of me inside of all the people who have guarded me ,and shown me what's worth living for.
When all the lights go out and no one's there to watch your movements,
I want to know what's going through your mind. And even if there's not a single star inside the sky tonight, I feel like I'm lighting up the sky.
Just take it day by day. It's okay, we've all been lost. And when you start to slip away, remember everything you've got. We're too young to say anything certain, so why the fuck do you seem so urgent?
I can't close my eyes because I know that when I do, I scare my self with vicious thoughts and words that ring untrue, Damaging my mind I see a door that frees my soul. If I could find that key I'd shut my eyes and go to sleep.
I can't close my eyes.