[Verse 1: j. cole]
Look, I just she'd tears homie and now I ain't to proud to admit it
Just seen my father for the first time in a minute
And when I say a minute I mean years man
Damn, a whale could have swam in them tears fam
Cause as I left him I reflected on my younger days
When it was just me and my brother and my mother played
Father, cause no other man bothered
Not even my biological, it never seemed logical
But I accepted it cause I ain't know no better
Thought I was brighter than a polo sweater
No pops was like martin with no coretta
So many things you could have told me
And saved me the trouble or lettin' my mistakes show me
I feel like you barely know me
And that's a shame cause our last name is the same
That blood type flowin' through our veins is the same
My mama left you and it may be that anger's to blame
But that's no excuse, only you and god know the truth
And why you only gone monthly, barely ever saw me
Spend some summer's with you and played with my cousin maury
Maybe I should be tellin' you fuck you cause you selfish
But I want a father so bad, I can't help it
I break down, I break down
Can't help but break down
[Verse 2: j. cole]
I never thought I'd see my mama on that shit man
It's fuckin' with her body, now she sit down
I wanted a big house with a white picket fence and a pool
Who would have ever thought that it would come to this, man?
Quicksand is what this life feel like
That shit these rappers kick is nothin' like real life
You made a milli off of servin' hard white? yeah right
My mama tell you what sticking to that pipe feel like
Stupid niggas, ain't heard of coppers shootin' niggas?
I swear to god, wish I could bullet proof my niggas
Can't get no jobs, but they still recruitin' niggas
We tryna stand tall when it gets to crucial niggas
Break down! we break down...
[Verse 3: j. cole]
Servin' time, lie down
And she don't want nobody to know, it started 25 pounds
By the time he get out, she gonna be 4
Now will his girl stay down?
Ain't no doubt, yeah she love him fo sho
But temptation stays round
And if she strayed, how could he ever know?
And so, she goes to the club on the weekend
A little freakin', but them niggas holla
But she never speakin', but tonight I see the devil creepin'
Cause she been lonely, she ain't felt a man in 7 seasons
Damn! she do the best that she can
Her mama tellin' her to find another man
She college educated with a felon boyfriend
That's what she thinkin' tonight
Maybe she's right, but please
Stay down mama! gotta be strong, don't break down mama!