And SEX was always there from when I was only eight years - tempting me leave thirsty Sweat, skin, a PULSE divine to balance this restless MIND - it seemed so wonderfully physical Oh the BLOOD, the lust, the bodies that color the world: all drugs to die for! Won't you share my fire? How can LOVE make that world a minefield of forbidden GROUND? A map of untouchable skin and SILENCED desire?
And love was there in vain, PROFOUND and deep but traced with pain - too early for a child of TEN Loving the pure and sane he sought the goddess unstained - watching them turn to flesh again HUNGRY for both the PURITY and SIN Life seemed to him merely like a GALLERY of how to be And he was always much more HUMAN than he wished to be But there is a LOGIC to his world, if they could only see
Wishing - Sickened - Ill - Ticking
SOMEONE still this hunger (it's in my blood) always growing stronger (ticking) BUDAPEST I'm learning, Budapest you're burning me
This is not who I wanted to be, this is not what I wanted to see She's so young so why don't I feel free now that she is here under me?
Naked - Touching - Soft - Clutching
And then after all it lead me here to wake up again Seeking a love that might make me feel free in myself but then it proves to be Something that hurts inside when we touch, so I move on, I lose my way Astray I'm trying too much to feel unchained, to burn out this sense of feeling cold And every day I seek my prey: someone to taste and to hold I feel alive during the split second when they smile and meet my eyes But I could cry 'cause I feel broken inside! COME and DROWN with me- the UNDERTOW will sweep us away! And you will see that I'm ADDICTED to my HONESTY Trust! 'Cause after all my sense of TRUTH once brought me here But I've LOST control and I don't know if I am true to my soul I've lost CONTROL and I don't know if I am true to my soul Losing control and I don't know if I am TRUE AT ALL
[Johan Hallgren] [Daniel Gildenlow]
And we were always much more human than we wished to be... And I remember when you said you've been UNDER him - I was surprised to feel such pain And all those years of being faithful to YOU despite the hunger flowing through my veins And I have always tried to calm things down - SWALLOW down swallow down "It's just another small THORN in my crown" But suddenly one day there was too much blood in my eyes, and I had to take this WALK down REMEDY LANE of when's and whys...
Empty - Licking - Clean - Choking
SOMEONE still this hunger (possessing my mind) always growing stronger (craving) BUDAPEST I'm learning, Budapest I'm burning me This is not who I wanted to be, this is not what I wanted to see She's so young so why I don't feel free now that she's under me? In the morning she's going away in a Budapest taxi I've paid Seeking freedom I touched the untouched - it's too much - I'm BEYOND THE PALE...
Prematurity is the story of both you and me, and we were always much more human than we wished to be Prematurity is truly the story of both you and me, and we were always much more human than we wished to be We were always much more human than we wished to be - we were always much more human than we wished to be We will always be more human then we wish to be
WE WILL ALWAYS BE SO MUCH MORE HUMAN THAN WE WISH TO BE...