I'm drifting through life without any goals
Blindfolded fool, in my heart there's a hole
I've looked everywhere but I can't find the real me
The righteous one, the one I always wanted to be

In my dreams I'm all covered in blood
Beaten to death, lying in the mud
If I died tonight it would be such a relief
My soul would finally be free

To a blood-filled sky or down below, that's where I belong
For I have lied, and I have sinned and I have killed your dream
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Sleepless nights turn into years
Decades of despair
All hope is gone since years ago
Almighty god bring me home

Unconscious for the last time in my life
I hate it! Time to lie down and die
Let the darkness take me home
A beautiful end of my totally wasted life

To a blood-filled sky or down below, that's where I belong
For I have lied, and I have sinned and I have killed your dream

Sleepless nights turn into years
Decades of despair
All hope is gone since years ago
Almighty god bring me home